Claudette's Musings

Changing Directions?

Thu, 04 Apr 2013 21:53:58 -0400

I’m wondering if I should turn this blog into a “things I love/enjoy” sort of blog. Mainly. I’m sure there’d still be rantings, but I realize that I post a lot of music on facebook and the truth is that I love music. Who doesn’t? I’d love to talk about songs/albums/artist that I’m enjoying. I just wonder if that would hold enough weight for enough regular topics on this blog. I’ll give it a try …

"When you believe yourself to be ugly or worthless, it’s hard to project anything beyond that. Often..."

Sun, 31 Mar 2013 18:58:12 -0400

“When you believe yourself to be ugly or worthless, it’s hard to project anything beyond that. Often you don’t even want to – after all, why attract attention to yourself when you’ve got so little to offer?”

- Thom Yorke (via fearwithout)

"It’s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly...."

Fri, 22 Mar 2013 20:03:35 -0400

“It’s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. I was so preposterously serious in those days…Lightly, lightly—it’s the best advice ever given me. So throw away your baggage and go forward. There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. That’s why you must walk so lightly. Lightly, my darling.”

- Island, Aldous Huxley (via commovente)

elizabeth-antoinette: Clever words are clever but the truth is always better.

Wed, 13 Feb 2013 20:49:19 -0500

elizabeth-antoinette:

Clever words are clever but the truth is always better.

Albums that rocked me in 2012. (In no particular order) Enhanced...

Wed, 16 Jan 2013 23:13:00 -0500

Albums that rocked me in 2012. (In no particular order)

Enhanced Miami Trance 2012: I was totally blindsided by this one. Randomly found on iTunes for sale, bought and LOVE! I’ll be honest, I only listen to 3/4 of the album (I’m a creature of habit), but I LOVE what I listen to. It’s the first *enhanced* trance album that I’ve ever bought. Most long songs feel like filler to me, but these are excellent!

Morgan Page - In The Air: Can I get an HALLELUJAH! for “Carry Me”? That song is still my jam. This album is beyond words. It’s a lot of fun dance pop music about love. It’s surprisingly not superficial given it’s context, but it’s also not too weighty. It’s just right.

Kaskade - Dance.Love: My first Kaskade album EVER. This year was my first official introduction to Kaskade and it resulted in me driving three hours to see him live. This album was my first full length introduction to house / dance music, and I have not looked back. Don’t stop dancing, girl.

Hands down (or up in the air) 2012 was a great year for me musically. I’ve started listening to a lot of great dance music, including expanding my love for dubstep. Right now I’m listening to more trance!!! (I just bought Miami Trance 2011 (Enchanced) for $6.99 and so far, so good). I’m excited for what 2013 has to offer.

I want to be the hero of my life.

Thu, 06 Dec 2012 22:04:38 -0500

I want to be the hero of my life.

The truth is that I don’t believe in anything, and that is both scary and liberating.

Sat, 24 Nov 2012 11:16:00 -0500

The truth is that I don’t believe in anything, and that is both scary and liberating.

1. Wallamelon + Lemon. 2. Cheezy raw kale. 3. Super ripe honey...

Thu, 01 Nov 2012 20:23:39 -0400

1. Wallamelon + Lemon.

2. Cheezy raw kale.

3. Super ripe honey dew.

4. Mangosteen. Impulse buy.

I'm slipping.

Tue, 30 Oct 2012 20:43:02 -0400

My last entry was in September, and it’s almost November so I’d like to post a brief update on the state of things in my life. Things are good and bad at the same time. Good meaning that I’m incredibly fortunate to have the life and opportunities that I do, and bad because I’m squandering … my life. Or so it feels.

I’m having a bad day today. This too shall pass.

What do I truly want?

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 21:22:00 -0400

So often I get stuck on the needs and shoulds. I need to do this. I should be doing that. And often when I think about what I want it’s something “sinful” or “bad.” But when I scratch the surface and think about what I really want … it’s all good. No matter what, my body wants to thrive. It wants to be clean and pure. It wants healthy food. It wants movement/exercise. My mind wants peace and clarity. It wants to be happy, healthy, joyous, in right relationship with self + nature + the world.

This is important to me because I have an internal rebel that sticks a middle finger to duty. She hates doing what she “has” to do. What she “must” do. She hates feeling controlled by others. But what I’m realizing is that a lot of the things that I “should” be doing are actually also things that I want to do. And suddenly my goals are more fun. They are MY goals. My wants. And that makes all the difference.

But there is also the part of me that says, “I WANT to stay up all night. I WANT to eat junk food all day. I WANT to stay in bed all day.” In response I ask myself, “What do I truly want?” I’m not trying to be patronizing. I’m just delving deeper in order to find out if said wants are genuine or do they betray a deeper truth? Are they only scratching the surface?

The truth is that I only want things that are good to me. I don’t want something that’s going to give me a little bit of pleasure and a lot of pain. I don’t want something that’s going to set me back. I’m almost 26 and I’m at the point where I WANT more out of life. I WANT to be healthy. I WANT healthy, delicious food. I WANT a strong body. I WANT to get a good night’s sleep. Every night. I WANT to take better care of myself - inside and outside. I WANT peace.

I believe that if I focus on the fact that these are things I truly WANT then I’ll naturally move toward those things. I know it’s not that simple. But it’s a start. I also think it’s important to think about what my body wants. My body wants what makes it healthiest. That’s a fact.

"What you seek is seeking you."

Sun, 16 Sep 2012 19:36:53 -0400

“What you seek is seeking you.”

- Rumi

This is happening right now. Also, I joined a bet on dietbet.com...

Wed, 12 Sep 2012 20:00:56 -0400

This is happening right now.

Also, I joined a bet on dietbet.com (http://www.dietbet.com/games/4029) and I’m pumped to begin. Health is my number one motivator, but money is also a nice incentive! All in all, I FAILED going fully raw this week. The truth is that I’ve got to take it all in stride … I’m changing my goal to two raw meals a day. I feel as if that is challenging + doable and it’s not daunting. I know I can do it. It just takes adequate planning. You know the old adage … if you fail to plan, you plan to fail. So true. Next time (which will be VERY soon) I will make a plan and stick with it. I know I can do this! I’ll also update with more photos. I love the raw vegan / health living tumblr community. I’d like to be a more active member.

Okay, enough typing. Backing to watermelon munching!

Going RAW for a week

Tue, 04 Sep 2012 22:41:25 -0400

I’ll be using cronometer.com to log the food I eat to make sure I’m getting adequate nutrition. I’m not sure how much exercise I’ll do, but I’ll definitely practice some yoga. I’m not sure how much energy I’ll have to do more strenuous exercises. Honestly, I have no clue what to expect. Will I lose weight? Will I gain weight? Will I have tons of energy? Will I be tired? Will I be crabby?

On a more positive note, I’m excited to indulge in delicious strawberries, kiwis, salads, green smoothies, fruit smoothies, bananas + dates, etc. I’m not sure if I’ll take a multivitamin or not … Not sure if I’ll allow myself to eat mints and/or chew gum. Not sure if I’ll drink tea or not … So I might end up being 99% raw, but that’s close enough.

Here’s what I want to happen: 1) Gain Health, 2) Lose fat, 3) Gain clarity, 4) Feel light, 5) Be satiated and satisfied. Here we go!

Food Diary: Eat more bananas!

Sat, 18 Aug 2012 18:26:44 -0400

Food Diary: Eat more bananas!:

angitaylor811:

1. Bananas help overcome depression due high levels of tryptophan, which is converted into serotonin, the happy-mood brain neurotransmitter
2. Eat two bananas before a strenuous workout to pack an energy punch and sustain your blood sugar
3. Protect against muscle cramps during workouts…

Thrive.

Mon, 16 Jul 2012 21:57:54 -0400

I want to thrive. I want to be truly healthy. I’m seriously considering a mostly raw foods lifestyle. My ENTIRE life I’ve been mediocre (at best) and I’m aching to improve my quality of life. Not to brag or to impress others, but to truly be alive. I only believe in this one life and I’m so very fortunate to have the freedoms that I do. I don’t want to waste my life having one foot in the grave.

Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this.

Sat, 05 May 2012 21:27:51 -0400

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"One months, two months, one year, two years, ten years. No use. Whole life. Whole life is practice."

Fri, 27 Jan 2012 22:38:00 -0500

“One months, two months, one year, two years, ten years. No use. Whole life. Whole life is practice.”

- Pattabhi Jois

Just came back from a ~ 2 mile walk/jog. I took it easy, and...

Wed, 25 Jan 2012 10:41:32 -0500

Just came back from a ~ 2 mile walk/jog. I took it easy, and really enjoyed myself. I averaged at about 16.6 minutes/mile, and my first goal is to bring that down to about 15 minutes/mile, then I plan on eventually increasing my mileage. But for now I’m doing well with my goal to (at least) walk 30 minutes a day.

Also, I love my free pedometer app! If you have an iPod touch or iPhone, and are looking for a free, high quality pedometer, then I highly recommend this one (Pedometer FREE). They also have a $1.99 upgraded version.

Healthy Life Update ...

Mon, 23 Jan 2012 22:35:00 -0500

I joined a weight loss challenge about a month ago (beginning of the year), and I’ve all but abandoned it. It’s still on my mind, but I haven’t gone as HARD as I had hoped. There are a few things that I’m implementing in my life though. I’m not 100% there yet … but I’m hoping I’ll take some steps toward my goal.

Walk at least 30 minutes a day (Of course, I don’t have to walk, but I want to do at least the equivalent of walking every day).
Drink plenty of water (and eliminate all other drinks … This is a bit extreme, but I’d like to drink teas, lemon juice flavored water, etc instead of sodas and juices).
“Meditate” at least 5 minutes a day. I’ve got a handy timer and I’m planning on starting my day with meditation by closing my eyes for (at least) 5 minutes and thinking positive thoughts/affirmations and setting my intention(s) for the day. Easy peasy.
No eating out during the weekdays. (Hands down the most difficult, and the one that I’ll struggle with the most … but the one that will reap the most benefits health-wise, financially, etc).
Reading (at least) an hour a day. Preferably a book.

Operation Finish What I've Started ...

Sun, 22 Jan 2012 16:50:41 -0500

I am the KING of not finishing things. I have a ton of books that I’ve read 25% of, but later abandoned (ex: Girl With A Dragon Tattoo, Before I Go To Sleep, Mockingjay, etc …). I’m not sure if it’s due to a lack of perseverance or a deep disdain for “forcing” myself to finish something that I’m just not 100% interested in.

Claudette's Musings

Changing Directions?

"When you believe yourself to be ugly or worthless, it’s hard to project anything beyond that. Often..."

"It’s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly...."

elizabeth-antoinette: Clever words are clever but the truth is always better.

Albums that rocked me in 2012. (In no particular order) Enhanced...

I want to be the hero of my life.

The truth is that I don’t believe in anything, and that is both scary and liberating.

1. Wallamelon + Lemon. 2. Cheezy raw kale. 3. Super ripe honey...

I'm slipping.

What do I truly want?

"What you seek is seeking you."

This is happening right now. Also, I joined a bet on dietbet.com...

Going RAW for a week

Food Diary: Eat more bananas!

1. Bananas help overcome depression due high levels of tryptophan, which is converted into serotonin, the happy-mood brain neurotransmitter 2. Eat two bananas before a strenuous workout to pack an energy punch and sustain your blood sugar 3. Protect against muscle cramps during workouts…

Thrive.

Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this.

"One months, two months, one year, two years, ten years. No use. Whole life. Whole life is practice."

Just came back from a ~ 2 mile walk/jog. I took it easy, and...

Healthy Life Update ...

Operation Finish What I've Started ...

1. Bananas help overcome depression due high levels of tryptophan, which is converted into serotonin, the happy-mood brain neurotransmitter
2. Eat two bananas before a strenuous workout to pack an energy punch and sustain your blood sugar
3. Protect against muscle cramps during workouts…